My name is Sterling, I'm 22-years-old, and I am the birthmother to the most gorgeous little boy in the world. I started this blog to share my experiences, thoughts, and help myself move forward after placing my sweet little boy. If this is your first time visiting my blog, I invite you to read my story (top of the left column). Feel free to comment with questions or requests. If you follow me, I'll follow you!
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Okay, Change of plans... David and Amy are going to be here (Utah) during Thanksgiving, so Ben and I are going to meet them before we tell them. The plan is to meet them at the agency, then if we still feel right about it I'll ask if they want to meet again the next day, then I'll leave, and my caseworker will give them their basket/invitation/announcement. If we don't feel right about them, then I won't ask if they want to get together again. I got cold feet a couple weeks ago, put it off for a bit, Ben got really really upset with me about it, but things are okay now. My little man has been moving more and more each day, and I've zoned out numerous times watching and feeling my tummy. It's incredible to feel the little life inside of me. I love him so much. I know now why people say they would give their lives for their children. I would do anything for this baby. I guess that's why I'm placing... I know I can't be a good enough mother. Not now, anyway. My time will come.